Although Man and Woman are not in very good terms now, Woman still does care about Man. And she believes that Man cares about her too. So they would still check out each others’ lives sometimes.. as friends.
Love Hurts
Excerpted from a recent conversation between Woman and Man:
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Woman i try not to hate bcoz i feel heartache.
Woman http://lilywe.wordpress.com
(Woman asked Man to read about her heartache.)
Man yeah, its very difficult to hate a person for too much. like oprah once said, its like drinking poison as much as possible hoping that someone else dies, its ridiculous.
(Man was in his usual self, sharing what he knows with Woman.)
Woman i nvr experienced hating someone so much before. u broke my record.
(Someone told Woman that she is a vibrant, cheerful, energetic and passionate young lady. So she seldom hates.)
Man guys can die over and over again..
(Man was trying to be funny? -_-||| )
Woman its the same for both men and women, the only difference is the intensity of their feeling.
(Because the type of love Man has was too shallow!)
Man yeah, the difference is too huge to be compared.
Woman and so when it fails, another emotion from the opposite polarity takes over. it just goes out of control!
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But Love Heals
Yesterday afternoon, Man and Woman had the below conversation.
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Man can i still hug u? i find it healing and comfortable..
(Woman was with Man throughout his worst period, keeping him company and healing his feelings.)
Woman wrong msg?
(Woman faked it!)
Man nah, its for u.
Woman its healing bcoz love heals all pains. but it hurts me bcoz i dont feel loved.
(Wow, what a synchonicity! I was still writing this post!)
Man no more 2nd chance? ever?
(Man is quite persistent.)
Woman u said u dont like the new me?
(Man commented he does not really like the new Woman after she changed her attitude towards him.)
Man the bad feeling is there sometimes, but when we hug and kissed, they all seems to disappear.. i like that feeling..
Woman then its not me, u just need someone to hug and kiss.
Man what’s ur feeling then? do u like it?
Woman yes i like it very very much. but i dread what u would say after kisses and hugs. most probably u will sms me to tell me not to be too close or stuff. i guess that where the negative feeling is.
Man i understand.
(Man could only convey his understandings and apologies after he hurt Woman. She get sicked of it!)
Woman i wasn conscious enough and so i gave in over and over again. but u nvr appreciated it. u r not as loving as u always claim.
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Reasoning
Love had healed Man but the same love also hurt Woman..
Love hurts but love heals? Contradicting huh?! How can love heals if it does hurt? If love really heals, will it be able to heal whom it hurts?
“Love is the best emotion with highest frequency!” So we often hear people saying that love heals all pains. Woman never doubt that statement. How it heals? When we have strong love towards someone or an object, we are empowered by the high energy to achieve whatever we can for the sake of our beloved ones. We want the best for the person we love. We want to make sure that he or she is happy. Love is also very uplifting. When we feels great, we want to improve, better equip ourselves and have more achievements. Love makes us better persons!
However the power of love must not be abused. The damage caused could become very great if love fails. Why is that? That is because when the same powerful energy switches polarity, the intensity of LOVE would also be moved to the negative side, the destructive one. No one heart can take the impact of the frequency switch.
Woman was willing to sacrifice for Man. She just did not care so much. What she wanted was to make her man feels better and heals faster. Too bad Man was very unconscious and had done things that hurt Woman deeply. Every now and then, she tries to convince herself to forgive him and to believe in him again. Maybe she was still in denial. She could not believe that the man she loves to be like this. After endless of trials, things just did not work out well..
Recently Woman read back her old posts and found a very inspiring poem – If You Love Someone.. Even though it was posted two years ago but it still valid now. What a timeless post! Reading it at this moment with this kind of complicated feeling makes Woman to think a lot. In just seconds, she was enlightened. Two months of griefs had awakened her to make up her mind. Though she experienced greatest heartbreak, she still chose to continue believing in the existence of true love. Man did comment that she was naive in regards of this belief. But who cares?
There was a shocking news came out yesterday. Steve and Erin Pavlina had separated and are planning for a divorce. Both of them are Man and Woman’s idols. Beginning of this year, they opened up their marriage to have intimate relationships with more people. They explained that was to meet the needs that their partner unable to achieve. It seemed to be a good approach to maintain the relationship and keep the marriage? Steve did mention that after going out with others, he found his love for Erin deepened. But why are they going separate ways? Erin wrote in her latest blog that she felt sad for something but feeling happy for another. This is a very truthful statement. Anyhow, may both Steve and Erin be blessed with healing love. The same goes to Man and Woman.
Do you believe that human beings are negative by default? I just cannot think of any song preaching love heals but love hurts.
It is an old song but definitely a classic. Many artists sang this song before but personally I prefer this version of Nazareth’s. Enjoy!
Love Hurts by Nazareth
Love hurts, love scars, love wounds and mars
Any heart not tough or strong enough
To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud holds a lot of rain.
Love hurts. Oooh,love hurts
I’m young I know but even so
I know a thing or two. I’ve learned from you.
I’ve really learned a lot, really learned a lot.
Love is like a flame, it burns you when it’s hot.
Love hurts. Oooh, love hurts
Some fools think of happiness,
Blissfulness, togetherness
Some fools fool themselves, I guess,
But they’re not fooling me.
I know it isn’t true, I know it isn’t true.
Love is just a lie, made to make you blue.
Love hurts. Oooh, love hurts.
Oooh, love hurts.
Oooh, love hurts.

I had been feeling heartache since last week. I am tortured by the pain whenever I cry. For that, I still could not figure out the reason behind it. The only thing I can do is to try never to cry. I am quite sure you could tell how devastated I was via my previous posts. You might ask, ‘Are you recovered yet?’ Not sure! I still do not know the answer whether I am truly fine now. Few weeks ago, the tough self of mine ignorantly felt that I was fine and innocently thought that I can treat everyone as equal as it used to be. Though things did not change this time, I just could not remove that someone from that Special zone.